Well, let's see. I haven't done any blogging in awhile, but I'm back! The six month hiatus I took was not planned, more of a slip in routine. Basically, I allowed my love for someone else take me away from ME. I didn't see it happening and once I woke up and realized what was going on, it was almost too late.
So here I am, on the other side and I feel like I'm starting over. And I mean completely over! And it's mainly due to my most recent (and only) brush with death.
It started the evening of Tuesday January 17, 2012. I started having abdominal pains which then turned into me being rushed to the hospital, losing 2.5 liters of blood, having emergency surgery and having two blood transfusions. Yeah, a lot I know! With death knocking on my door and me pulling out of it I couldn't help but to realize that things needed to change. I was able to pull myself out of a lot of situations that I found out were dysfunctional and unhealthy. Friends became associates and a lover who was my everything became someone I had to learn to love from a distance.
All of these things may seem like a lot and just a really tragic story BUT actually I feel truly blessed! I am still here for my son, I have another opportunity for greatness, and I just have a whole new outlook on life. Sometimes while going through our day to day routine and facing adversity, we tend to lose sight of the bigger picture. And that is: Tomorrow is not promised to anyone! So instead of complaining about what I don't have and what the next person did to me, I'm grateful for the moments I get to spend with my son and the times I'm able to give my friends advice and make a difference in their lives.
So now I'm back and I feel like I have some things that I can share.
So strap up and enjoy the ride!
Sometimes I'm mindless, sometimes I can be a maniac. But no matter what the situation I'm always ME!
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